A girlfriend and I were talking about blogging at lunch today and I mentioned that I don’t really feel like I’m an expert of anything. It didn’t take long to figure out something, I hate to admit, that I might be close to an expert on.
It’s currently the end of August. Just over three and one-half weeks ago I found myself in a very unexpected position.
Monday morning, August 5th I was at work, after taking several days off. I was working on what needed to be done for the day. One of the partners called me into his office. Surprisingly, the other partner was there, too. Even though I had only worked there for about five months, I figured I was maybe going to have my annual review. I was so wrong.
Due to the restructuring of the firm, my position was being eliminated. Effective immediately. I was stunned. They said I had done nothing wrong, they were just taking my position and replacing it with another position. I said I understood, which I kind of did. It would be better to eliminate my position and replace my part-time position with a more qualified person working full-time since I didn’t have the skills to do tax returns and truly that is where they needed help.
I asked how long I would be staying on. That was my last day. So I went back to my desk and finished my work for the day and tried to keep it together, while I kept thinking “this isn’t my job anymore, why am I still here?” I was still there because that’s the kind of person I am. I wanted to not leave them with some unfinished business that needed to be completed that day.
Since it had been a little over a year since I was in this same position of losing a job, I knew what to do. Once I arrived home I applied for unemployment, instead of waiting for a week or two as I had done before. Since then I have been looking for a job, applying anytime I find something I’m qualified for. I wasn’t dealing with anger or irritation this time. I understood why and knew they weren’t going to call me back in a few days to call me back.
How would you respond if this happened to you?
Would you feel it’s maybe time to retire and give up on finding a job?
I will say that my life has changed since that unexpected day. No, I haven’t found a job yet, but I’m very happy. Surprisingly, I have been doing a lot of baking. And I have been going out with family and friends for lunch. Plus I have started taking a regular forty-five minute morning walk at least 4 times a week. I didn’t go crazy and stop my diet I started July 1 and I’m doing my best to accomplish several things a day, instead of sitting at home feeling sorry for myself.
And because I was doing a great job at my previous position, I have been rewarded with a recommendation letter that shows I was well-liked, which is handy for looking for a new job.
Will I find a job? I don’t know. After applying for so many jobs and going on interviews, it took me about nine months to find my permanent job, which only lasted five months. It’s kind of disheartening. I believe I am being called in next week for an interview, after having a preliminary one on the phone today. Who knows? Surely, not me. Only God knows what is in my future. I have to trust Him for that. Maybe since I’m not feeling the desperation I did last time, I’ll find something quickly. Or maybe God plans on me retiring this year, earlier than I planned. I’ll keep you posted.
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